I used to wish for so much more

Tears well up within my eyes, I feel a pain I can't disguise

And watch my teardrops fall upon the floor

Every time I'm hurt again, I do not fear, I love the pain

Yet, I forget what it is I am living for

If I close my eyes and nod my head, when I wake up will I be dead

Or is there more pain for me in store

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I rest my head within my hands and wish that I could understand

The truth about this love I so adore

My hands pressed tight onto my ears, my voice a scream that no one hears

Another teardrop falls upon the floor

Darkened, dismal, loveless life, stabbing me as if a knife

Hateful so and painful more and more

Beloved pain, why shan't I die, without you what the hell have I

Alone and crying on the floor

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Still alone, no one around, I shed a tear without a sound

I pray that someone sees my mind is torn

No one will see, no one will care, they think I smile, they're unaware

Of this pain that burns inside a heartless core

I can't speak out, I must be strong, but I can't go on very long

How much lonely pain can I endure

No one knows me, no one will, know this life of constant hell

Lest they see the stains from my tears upon the floor

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There is so much love inside my soul, so much love I've never shown

And the pressure is building more and more

I gave my love with none returned, a foolish man, I never learned

For me, Fate has no love in store

So now the name of she I love is only known by God above

I shall not say her name, lest her heart be torn

For I shall die without her touch, this woman whom I love so much

For whom I cry these tears upon the floor

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I love her so, yet can not say, for fear that she would turn away

Afraid my love for her might be scorned

'Immortal Beloved' Hear me now, I pray that you might know somehow

That it is you that my love was always for

And this love I can not say, for fear that I' be turned away

From this woman whom I so adore

When you read, I pray you know, that I truly loved you so

And wanted you as mine forevermore

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But, I can't say, for my fear, how much I long to have you here

To help me through a pain I can't endure

My perfect mate so lost to me, I pray not now for anything

Lest that my body not be found upon the floor

This pain I feel is really love, graced to me by God above

Yet, not the love of she whom I adore

Still alone, still I'm crying, only now, I see I'm dying

As another teardrop falls upon the floor

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Now I see it's not a tear, not the woman I love and fear

Not a teardrop that falls upon the floor

Just the dream of a dying man, I dream I'll never understand

As the blood drips from my wrists upon the floor

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